7 May, 2011. Saturday.

I think, I shudnt know about what you wanna do to ur mum on Mother's Day. Its okay for you to spill it out on me...but i really have an issues with that.

I feel like a fuckin moron!

Insecure! you get me? inferior!

why is in the world that your family is sooooo fuckin perfect!? on the other side, mine is fucked up? im SOOO jealous!!

I dont wanna know, what the hell you did for your mom on Mother's Day!

Go away...I hate this feeling.

This post wast written by me in the midst of May.

cant believe I'm so disturbed..I cud even hate the Mothers Day Celebration? haha :) memories..they fade over time. dats the main reason I write.

Major Breakdown

sometimes you hold so much pain n bitterness inside of you,

tryina stay strong, act like nothing happen. like a plain white sheet.

you hold it for far too long, and one day..one fine day

you woke up on your bed..figuring out your life..thinking dat you cudnt hold it no more

so you break down n cryy..cry like every bit in your life is a mistake.

letting it all go...n then there you are..cracking a smile again.

suddenly all the suffering n bitterness fade..

just like a plain white sheet,

you begin to write it all over again. :)