Hopeless

its like ur screaming, and no one's gonna hear..

never thought that someone could be that important.

without them, u feel like nothing. no one will never understand what you has

you feel hopeless, like nothing can save you.

and when its over..and its gone. you wished that you could have it all back.

7 May, 2011. Saturday.

I think, I shudnt know about what you wanna do to ur mum on Mother's Day. Its okay for you to spill it out on me...but i really have an issues with that.

I feel like a fuckin moron!

Insecure! you get me? inferior!

why is in the world that your family is sooooo fuckin perfect!? on the other side, mine is fucked up? im SOOO jealous!!

I dont wanna know, what the hell you did for your mom on Mother's Day!

Go away...I hate this feeling.

This post wast written by me in the midst of May.

cant believe I'm so disturbed..I cud even hate the Mothers Day Celebration? haha :) memories..they fade over time. dats the main reason I write.

Major Breakdown

sometimes you hold so much pain n bitterness inside of you,

tryina stay strong, act like nothing happen. like a plain white sheet.

you hold it for far too long, and one day..one fine day

you woke up on your bed..figuring out your life..thinking dat you cudnt hold it no more

so you break down n cryy..cry like every bit in your life is a mistake.

letting it all go...n then there you are..cracking a smile again.

suddenly all the suffering n bitterness fade..

just like a plain white sheet,

you begin to write it all over again. :)

malaysia king bed.

Chest to chest,
Palm to palm.. We were always that close..
Arm to arm
Lips to lips,

And now distances seems to be between us
I wanna ask you whether u love me,
But I don't wanna seem so weak. :(

stupidos

if u want a first class service,send it to designers or who ever dat cud give u first class service. dont simply fucking send it to cheap shop or people who cant provide u ur first class service! bodohhh!

u lah stupid, not the person who did it. she doesnt know a single thing becos shes not a pro. but u are so stupiddd, knowing dat shes not a pro and still acquire her service,hoping dat she cud do it as you wish.. stupid mofosss!!!

there's no way back

i think its better for me to write down my feelings rather than pouring it to people. bcos i believe everyone is battling their own war. instead of bursting and talking. writing is wayyy more better for me.

one of the easiest way for me to release all this hectic feelings inside. besides rock climbing, go kart and all these extreme sport ive been doing. as far as i know it doesnt help me a lot in de-stressing my mind.

what else i shud do?? god do i need to register myself into asylum?

beeen a whilee

heyyy its been a while.

a lott of things has changed...and im all wrecked up.

i neeed to get away from here. far away from everybody.

all i need is just one more chance. to go back and erase. dats all i ever wanted. :(