menyampah la final exam ni. tak menyempat aku nak jiwang.

You never looked so good
As you did last night
Underneath the city lights
There walking with your friend
Laughing at the moon
I swear you looked right through me
But I'm still living with your goodbye
And you're just going on with your life

How can you just walk on by
Without one tear in your eye?
Don't you have the slightest feelings left for me?
Maybe that's just your way
Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything between our rise and fall
Like we never loved at all

You, I hear you're doing fine
Seems like you're doing well
As far as I can tell
Time is leaving us behind
Another week has passed
And still I haven't laughed yet
So tell me what your secret is?
To letting go, letting go like you did, like you did


haih. pelan2 please. benda ni amik masa kan?

i dont think i have the strength to let you go.

Nak buat cemana ni weyhhh.

berpeluh-peluh bila fikir fasal kau.

Finishing You

i'll finish everything this week.
minggu paling hectic dalam semester ni!
i thought of handling everything well.

but GOD knows better. when he twisted upside down your plan.
maybe he's planning something better for me, my group...maybe.

sometimes. sometimes...but mostly everytime i think. i tried hard, to be HARD.
to maintain the momentum..momentum of being myself.

but you know. a girl got to do, what a girl got to do..sometimes i break down too.
yes, yes, all this pressure are making me down. but yet i stumble. i knew i could do it.
give up is really not an option for me. its a DARE.

Perut lapar,malam-malam buta.

sayyidah are you down,down,down?

even if the sky is falling down?

dream last for so long, even after you're gone.

i knew it easy for you..but not for me.

Haish..

GOTTA BE STRONG AND HANG ON BITCH!

we believe in YOU.

Is it fate? or written in my book of destiny?

first it was me, fine! that was not a big deal..im a fucking 20 and i can handle myself.
then it goes to fatin..dad's family,umi..makngah's family...are we all were meant to be broken?

what happens to the ties that bind us?
all i can do..is sit at the corner in my room and pray harder instead of faking my tears.
i cant show myself too others like this, the fact that i'm weak. cuz i am.


dear LORD.
we believe in you.
please forgive our sins,
cuz we pilgrim are weak and doubtfull.

emosi

mau gembira..tapi sedih

mau sedih..tapi meraung

mau jalan..tapi merangkak

mau marah..tapi kenapa?

mau memberi..tapi hampa

mau penjelasan..tapi tak guna

mau pergi..tapi menunggu...

Me myself and I

I don't wanna be with myself either

If i could only get away.

Just a few more years,

i hope i'd have all the money in the world just to get away.

and finally find my self..

Silence is Golden

this is how feel..rite now.

Lust or Anger, which one you prefer?

im making some spaghetti for my tummy.

without any lust to eat em.

i keep on smiling whenever i saw something that could remind me of you.

if only i could find a way to kill those memoirs. no, i dont wanna erase them. just kill.

but its okay, i guess i enjoy having you stayed that way in my mind.. :)