Finally.

life gives me one thousand reason to be happy!

instead of one fucking reason, to be sad of.

so i'm faking my smile..and life must go on kan?

Being Stupid.

yes, the pieces dont fit in anymore.

but what do i do when im the one whose forcing myself to him?

stop torturing yourself.

accept the fate. he's not yours. forever not gonna be yours.

his name not even written in your book of destiny.

so please stop.

from remembering how he's flow his fingers trough his hair..

because all the memoirs are killing you.

Emo for the whole October

slow dance with me?

no second thought about that please..

Hating You Shall Be A Game

I shall hate you
Like a dart of singing steel
Shot through still air
At even-tide.

hating you shall be a game
played with cool hands
and slim fingers like mine.

and when memory will lay its hands
upon your mind
and you will understand
my hatred.

i guess i was wrong, to give you all my love. to put all the weight of the world on my shoulder and loving you.

maybe its just me, maybe im the one who's wrong.

and im crying all alone tonight, wasting all my mind just to think of all your lies. white lies,plain white lies.

Untitled

I'm still not assured how much you want me.
is it just me being so into you again?
I'm in danger again, coz i let my feelings run for you
and now,it's here.

Gagak Hitam

Baru balik jumpa Gagak Hitam.

had a blast! walaupun sekejap..you guys still made my day!

banyak nak kongsi..

tapi nak start dari mana pon tak tau.

yang penting lepas balik jumpa korang tu aku emo sekejap.

thinking that we all grown up and choose our own way to build our future..kan?

padahal dekat sekolah dulu, semua benda sama-sama.

ponteng prep, perhimpunan, kelas, suma sama2.

kena kejar dgn fahim, lari laju tak pandang belakang dah~

kena tangkap dgn ustazah pasal tgk tv kat bilik tv malam2.

nak igt balik, tiap hari aku kat sekolah tu pon ada kenangan.

its just that benda tu tak pernah hilang dari minda aku.

since jumpa korang balik, aku refresh la benda tu suma.

but still aku tak pernah menyesal..jadi nakal macam tuh. bagi aku, tu suma nikmat dunia.

tapi effect dia, tgk la result spm! hahah mmg FLYING COLORS LA KAN!.

tapi takpe, tuhan maha adil kan..

we build our future pelan2..aku sentiasa takut dgn masa depan,

thinking wht will happens to us? to ourself. but now, as time goes by..dunia yang ajar aku jadi matang.

Back in Her Little Room

apa lu rasa..bila rumah yang selama ini tempat paling damai, jadi macam neraka dunia buat lu..

tempat terakhir yg lu ingin jejak ialah rumah lu sendiri.. apa lu rasa? kalau gua..gua nak hilang ingatan boleh dak? nak lupa siapa diri gua yg sebenarnya.

nak lari dari suma lah senang cita.

yang penting kita happy!

results for economy test are out! and i'm super happy with it! hehehe

aku macam nak pengsan jugak la tgk itu markah, what the fish weh??? full mark okay. nak tau tak? yg aku ni dari kecik smpai besar tak penah lulus matematik. and now aku dapat full mark. kegilaan apa kah di bulan ramadhan inikah? * bersyukur*. lepas berhempas pulas, memulas buah pulas, akhirnya aku berjaya gak wat paper killer tuh. cewahhh killer la sgt.

bad news- gemok sakit balik, kali ni lebih teruk. aku tak sedap hati dgr..and beebi keep it as a secret for me. what for? panas hati betul aku..jgn la, aku pon nak tumpang tanggung beban beebi jgk. haih..dugaan bulan

ramadhan betul..

good news- raya preparation are super ready! cuma aku rasa taun ni tak meriah maybe. gigi (bukan nama sebenar) takda..gemok plak sakit, hmm tinggal aku dgn pak kesing je lah..

mood sekarang- berkepam ketiak utk menyiapkan suma assignment before raya. nak serang umah munang dgn mercun la taun ni.

i love you, i love you..but most of all, i love myself!!!!

Mata lebam. Muka Alien. 2nd series

Lupa aku ada blog. kah kah kah.

kau ni emo la..jgn lupa kau dah 21 okay. start handling things using your brain. dont mix it up with your emotion lah kan. bila dah campur dgn emosi..kau jadi sama mcam aku lah!

hey mamat, kau kena igt suma benda jadi ada hikmah k. so anggap jelah ni ujian buat kau.

setakat benda ni aku rasa takde pape lah yg nak dibanding dgn aku ni..forever ujian tau tak...aku rasa ko tak cukup kuat la nak berdepan dgn masalah. jgn lari weh..itu bukan penyelesaian. benda boleh bawak bincang. duduk and fikir lah ape next step kau selepas ni.

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okay, minggu ni..minggu productive aku. yang aku buat keje gila banyak macam jimbet! test berderet2. tiap tiap hari pastu..pastu pagi petang siang malam suma ada test. macam mana la otak gua tak senget bai?

yang penting aku berusaha macam nak mati. sampai dalam dewan pon aku berusaha utk tiru gak. panjang gak lah leher aku tgk paper org..hohoho.

life is how you make it kan? apa yang penting?? aku USAHA!